My parents haven’t called me since July. I saw them in July.
My parents moved to Florida from Upstate NY in February of 2015. I had a very very hard time with it. I’ve also done extensive work in therapy about why I’ve had the feelings I’ve had about them moving and how to work through them.
I’ve done a lot of work with my therapist about whether or not I can say something to them. Is this just them? Is it just how they are? Maybe. They did the best they could. They’ve raised two wonderful daughters. They’ve given up a lot of my sister and I. They worked hard, provided for us, supported us, loved us the best way they knew how. How can I possibly take grief in them enjoying their retirement? I can’t. And I’ve done the work to process those feelings.
The problem now, is that I literally don’t hear from them. They answer my text messages. They answer my phone calls. I have not had one uninitiated conversation with my parents since I last saw them in July.
Are there still things I need to work through? Absolutely. But they have things to work through too. Don’t they want to call their kids? Don’t they care at all? My dad just texted “I brag about you everyday.” That’s great. Fucking call me.
I’m just so exhausted.